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Awake?!?
For days, sleep eluded me. Depression is a bitch. No matter the cause. I wanted to sleep. My eyes hurt, my head hurt, everything hurt. Eventually, your body says “Nope, time to crash.” Now, everything hurts still.. and them some. It’s the dreams.. and then the awakening. Waking up to stillness. Waking up to despondency.…
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Sleep?!
I lie down, to rest… But my mind will not… So, I’m awake I close my eyes, but sleep escapes them… So do tears. Hours tick by. Days. Nearly uninterupted wakefulness. In those moments of sleep, nothing more than inertia.
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Lies.. lies… lies..
I get to these points… these low points of sadness, where I simply cannot function. And I don’t know what to do with that, because depression isn’t something that I deal with on the often. I review, reflect, rewind all of it. I go from every little mistake I made to even things that I…
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“You saved my life…”
This isn’t my story to tell, but I’m going to tell it anyway. My best friend has had an uphill battle for quite a while now. Even more so in the last year. Her most recent battle. Brain surgery. Notice, I use the word “battle.” That’s what it is. It’s a battle. The war is…
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Henry Solomon Scott Jr. (02/04/1946-10/25/25)
I cannot find one word to describe him. Too many fill my head in such a torrential fashion. Roughly five years ago, Henry started his journey on both Parkinson’s and Kidney Disease. In the beginning, Henry was a dad who stepped up. By the end, Henry had been the dad who stepped in. From day…
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Donna Renee Cone (11/03/61-04/27/25)
If I had to describe her in one word.. it would be “faithful.” From the first time I met her, she treated me as one of her own. She loved me, and she was honest, brutally at time, but honest with me. She was kind. I’ve met one other person like her and that was…
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“Resolution.”
It’s defined as: “A firm decison to do or not to do something” I love the New Year. It marks the begining. A begining is a start. A start is a definitive postion. It “marks” a clear cut definition. It represents structure. Often times, people say: “I don’t make New Year’s resolutions because I’m not…
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Tired..
I’m tired.. I’m tired of how things stay the same… I’m tired of how things always change… I’m tired of all the noise………….. I’m tired of the deafening silence…… I’m tired of the laughter…………… I’m tired of the melancholy…………. Mostly… I’m just tired.
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Growth. What is it?
Isn’t growth something we try to do everyday? Is it a mindset? Is it what we “think” we are doing, when something doesn’t work out the way we thought it should? For me, it’s all of the above. A lot of times, my growth is stunted. It’s stunted because I find myself in a rut,…
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Yesterday…
It’s easy to live in yesterday.. We all do it. We live in our pasts, we hold other people accountable for their pasts.. and make them live in their pasts. Mostly, I think we all have a problem forgiving ourselves of the past. Orrrrr… maybe that’s just me. I beat myself up more than anyone…
It's Hard Being a Human 