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Lies.. lies… lies..
I get to these points… these low points of sadness, where I simply cannot function. And I don’t know what to do with that, because depression isn’t something that I deal with on the often. I review, reflect, rewind all of it. I go from every little mistake I made to even things that I…
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Abandonment issues….
(Disclaimer: shit’s about to get real raw) Abandonment issues are a real thing. One day you wake up and realize, “yes- I do have them.” And believe me, I realized this long ago… and then I push it back and deny it. Then it hits me front and center… and then I deny it. Perhaps…
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Breathe through the hard parts…
I’ve been awake a total of two and a half hours, and I already know what kind of day it’s going to be. A struggle. I’m disorganized, indecisive, feel misplaced, and on edge. By on edge, I don’t mean irritable. I mean, like my insides are a ball of rubber bands popping one at a…
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“Where’ve YOU been?”
Right here. Living life. With my brain going 90 mph on a million different things I should be writing, or could be writing, would be interesting to write about. It’s been a roller coaster of some “mental health” days, let me tell you! And until you experience it, you’ve no idea! And if you have…
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My brain… My brain… My brain…
Mental health is no joke. If you’ve followed me for any length of time, you know that I suffer from some of this. I’m fortunate. I recognized. Continue to recognize it. And I’m medicated. Just the same.. It rears it’s head from time to time. Medication doesn’t mean it never flares up. It means the…
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Words..
In todays world, people are constantly throwing words out there, when casually talking about mental health. I think the most common ones are the word “trigger” and the word “narcissist.” The word “trigger” is used way too loosely. And the word “narcissist” is just thrown around without any real digging into what the word or…
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“Dear Younger Me..”
How would a conversation go with the younger version of me? What would I tell myself? What would I keep from myself? I would definitely tell myself to be more cautious with my heart, but not so cautious that I miss out on the joys of life and people. I would tell myself that I’m…
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Today…
To say I’m exhausted is an understatement. Mentally and physically drained. Getting in your own way, or tripping over your own feet, is not a fun game. But, it was brought to my attention today that this is what I’m completely successful at doing. I suppose I knew that, but for a licensed therapist to…
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Impusle Control…
This subject has literally been on my mind all night. So much so, that I couldn’t sleep well. Something I struggle with is impulse control. It comes in many forms. It comes in the form of buying stuff before I think it through. It comes in the form of doing something for someone else that…
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Anxiety..
My anxiety is on 100 today. Don’t get me wrong, its been on 99 for the last month, and 90 for a couple months before that. But it’s definitely at 100 today. You know that feeling where your chest is tight, your heart and mind are racing so fast they can’t keep up with each…
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