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Hi. I’m Jennifer…
And I suffer from Bi-Polar. Suffer- experience or be subjected to (something bad or unpleasant). I do not suffer from mania. Mania makes my house clean and shiny. Mania makes me run circles around everyone at my job. Mania makes me productive. Now, mania might make those around me suffer, lol. I am on 100%. I…
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Awake?!?
For days, sleep eluded me. Depression is a bitch. No matter the cause. I wanted to sleep. My eyes hurt, my head hurt, everything hurt. Eventually, your body says “Nope, time to crash.” Now, everything hurts still.. and them some. It’s the dreams.. and then the awakening. Waking up to stillness. Waking up to despondency.…
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A Runner; A different point of view
She was a runner. Sometimes on emotion, sometimes on logic, but ever the runner. Even she didn’t know if she was running from herself or running from other things. Shadows? Love? For protection? Maybe she wasn’t running from anything. Perhaps she was running to something. Searching. Looking. Maybe both. She just didn’t know. How could she expect anyone else to know? Then she ran into you. Maybe by chance, maybe with intent. Nevertheless, she ran…
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Sleep?!
I lie down, to rest… But my mind will not… So, I’m awake I close my eyes, but sleep escapes them… So do tears. Hours tick by. Days. Nearly uninterupted wakefulness. In those moments of sleep, nothing more than inertia.
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Lies.. lies… lies..
I get to these points… these low points of sadness, where I simply cannot function. And I don’t know what to do with that, because depression isn’t something that I deal with on the often. I review, reflect, rewind all of it. I go from every little mistake I made to even things that I…
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Abandonment issues….
(Disclaimer: shit’s about to get real raw) Abandonment issues are a real thing. One day you wake up and realize, “yes- I do have them.” And believe me, I realized this long ago… and then I push it back and deny it. Then it hits me front and center… and then I deny it. Perhaps…
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Breathe through the hard parts…
I’ve been awake a total of two and a half hours, and I already know what kind of day it’s going to be. A struggle. I’m disorganized, indecisive, feel misplaced, and on edge. By on edge, I don’t mean irritable. I mean, like my insides are a ball of rubber bands popping one at a…
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“Where’ve YOU been?”
Right here. Living life. With my brain going 90 mph on a million different things I should be writing, or could be writing, would be interesting to write about. It’s been a roller coaster of some “mental health” days, let me tell you! And until you experience it, you’ve no idea! And if you have…
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My brain… My brain… My brain…
Mental health is no joke. If you’ve followed me for any length of time, you know that I suffer from some of this. I’m fortunate. I recognized. Continue to recognize it. And I’m medicated. Just the same.. It rears it’s head from time to time. Medication doesn’t mean it never flares up. It means the…
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OUT with the OLD, IN with the NEW!!
I could absolutely strike a match to this past year! However, “though times make tough people.” Hurt, pain, sadness… all that comes because of love, joy, and happiness. It’s impossible to have one without the other. What does 2026 hold for Jennifer? Let’s start with “Writing.” Obviously, here we are again, right? I’ve recently been…
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